Energy

Have you ever had the feeling that something big is building up inside of you, the only problem is that your not sure whether its a good thing or a bad thing? like this massive ball of energy building in your chest looking for some creative outlet? have you ever had that feeling? it frustrates me, mostly because it goes away to quickly and than nothing comes of it. well this time i'm not going to let nothing come of it i'm going to fight to keep it, there will be great things to come! i swear it!

i guess i just want to express it. but how do you express something you cannot identify? with music? that never seemed to cut it. with art? ditto. maybe i'm doomed to go through life with this massive burden of "something" and no outlet until one day the pressure becomes to much and i die(or something)
ok this post is a little wierd sorry guys